As I have been writing about in many other posts, I have been on what I call my “manifestation journey” since 2017 (because I was unhappy with my life and wanted to manifest more money to change it), and have learned so much and have made radical acceleration of rediscovery and remembering Who I Am in expanding my level of consciousness.
After exhaustively learning, reading, searching and practicing countless manifestation techniques from Abraham Hicks, Ascended Masters, channeled messages, a QHHT session, another psychic reading, you name it I tried it and finally I am at peace with my life and where I am now. It was actually in the last reading I received in Oct 2019 that I discovered some of my energetic blockages were connected to my dad. This made sense because I have cleared, healed and released so many other blockages I couldn’t imagine what was left.
I know now that money was the carrot needed to push me, to drive me with the fire of dreams and visualizations of a life I wished for and wanted to live so badly, what I call Extraordinary Life 2.0. The time I spent dreaming about this life has built the foundation of my future life after the agreement is complete and I’m free.
I know now I was attempting to manifest through the mind/ego desires and not through the heart/soul. What the mind attempts to create must be in alignment with what the soul aspect wants to experience. If it’s not nothing will happen. Efforting is unnecesary and counter-productive.
I have finally completely accepted that I am exactly where I should be, need to be, at this stage of my life plan. I am fulfilling my soul agreement with my dad.
Life is about all relationships. Everything else is basically filler.
I know that my challenge is to master the virtue of patience, to patiently wait for the agreement with dad to complete without feeling trapped. The difficulty lies in seeing what I have created or what is possible in EL 2.0 and not living it now but instead living what I am living.
In knowing how much financial abundance is available for me to receive through so many channels yet still having to focus on the same channel, the work channel, to receive money. Of knowing I AM unlimited but still playing the limited game.
I want to uphold my agreement, and I am because I have no choice really, the conditions have been created to ensure that, but the difficulty lies in not knowing just how much longer it will continue. How do I reconcile this feeling of what I could be living vs what I am? I have already accepted this living situation but clearly I have more work to do…I know that my perception is all in my mind, whether I choose to feel trapped in stagnation or just patiently waiting for the agreement to complete is my choice. And the difference is higher or lower frequency.
Because ultimately the situation won’t change either way but how I feel about it determines whether I live in heaven or hell…. I may not have a choice in fulfilling this soul agreement but I have a choice in how I live through and experience it.
Because this agreement was created with Love and it will be completed with Love. I refuse to allow my ego to attach to any lower frequency feeling of being trapped or stagnant. I refuse to allow myself to be pulled back into the lower frequency negative feelings! I must accept that EL 2.0 is still a future timeline for me and focus completely on my current life, to fully accept this reality now. In order to be successful I must put EL 2.0 out of my head for now and know that it will be made manifest when it’s time. My living situation may remain the same day in and day out for however many years to come but I AM LIGHT AND FREE! I AM VICTORIOUS!
I know that because dad as a personality is quite challenging to interact with on a daily basis, the gift/blessing he is giving me is constantly stretching me and helping me in every interaction to choose Love and strengthen my resolve to detach from the lower frequencies and not let myself go back down that road because it’s not the direction I’m going.
Through living with him I’m digging deeper than I ever have before, I’m being stretched more than I ever have before and I’m expanding more than I ever have before. Because living with him is the most difficult thing I’ve ever done. And it’s also the most important thing I need to do right now which is why I’m at peace knowing that this is exactly where I should be right now. Since I moved in with him in 2015 and up to now in 2020, in five short years I’ve radically, exponentially expanded my consciousness and my heart. With his unconscious help as my mirror, I have opened my heart dramatically and am basking in peace and harmony.
I imagine myself as a Jedi Master Student and my dad is Obi Wan Kenobi and through every interaction with him I see where I am doing good and where I can still improve. Improve in being nicer, kinder, better than I was before. Even though I thought I was doing good I still need to go further and he is showing me that. If I want to become again the Perfected Being I AM like Master Jesus did I have to go further, deeper, kinder, better. I must BE the Love. I must BE the Infinite Patience. I will continue to open my heart more to him and take as much advantage of this golden opportunity as I can because his time is up soon, his demise day is near. And when he is gone this particular evolutionary opportunity will be gone too.
I continue to expand my heart/consciousness and when that time comes for a timeline shift (new Event Space – see The Curators Book Review) I will be so expansive in the higher frequencies and living in heaven! Actually I’m already there now!
I know that where I am RIGHT NOW and what I’m doing RIGHT NOW is the most important thing I need to do RIGHT NOW to be of service to my dear brother, my dad. To hold space for him and support him in the best ways that I can. Because that’s the main priority of the incarnation experience – to evolve and grow through our relationships. Everything revolves around relationships. Because that’s all there is!
There is a way to be happy in relationships, and that is to use relationships for their intended purpose, not the purpose you have designed. Relationships are constantly challenging; constantly calling you to create, express, and experience higher and higher aspects of yourself, grander and grander visions of yourself, ever more magnificent versions of yourself. Nowhere can you do this more immediately, impactfully, and immaculately than in relationships. In fact, without relationships, you cannot do it at all.Conversations with God, Book 1 Ch. 8
It is only through your relationship with other people, places, and events that you can even exist (as a knowable quantity, as an identifiable something) in the universe. Remember, absent everything else, you are not. You only are what you are relative to another thing that is not. That is how it is in the world of the relative, as opposed to the world of the absolute—where I reside.
Everything on Earth exists as an evolutionary platform for our relationships. How we treat and feel about each other is all that matters. The rest is just filler! Mastering the art of patience truly is a virtue! Expanding in patience is my greatest challenge and yet will be the most rewarding.
Because the personality/mind is wrapped up in time – how long is this agreement going to last? When will it be completed? How long do I have to live this way? And the Soul Aspect/Higher Self is not because it is timeless. So the personality either has to learn how to let go of time and accept however long this is going to last or create massive amounts of suffering due to its impatience and resistance. Because no amount of complaining or tantrum throwing is going to change the parameters of the agreement as long as the Soul Aspect/Higher Self continues to choose to fulfill the agreement.
This is one area where we as the personality do not have control; all we can control is our reaction to the situation. Every time an interaction with him is difficult and whenever I dig deep inside myself and choose Love instead of anger, frustration or impatience, I’m strengthening my resolve and commitment to myself to detach from the lower frequencies and soar higher into the highest frequencies of the Source Stream. As I fulfill this agreement, not only do I serve my dear brother I serve myself because we are all One and this challenge is causing me to expand and stretch myself more than anything ever will. I truly feel that after this agreement is complete, there will be nothing in my life that will come close to being as difficult as being of service to my dad. After this I can handle anything!
I truly advise you to dig deep and really look for and find the blessings the difficult people in your life give you. Because like my dad, they are your Jedi Masters pushing you to become the best version of yourself. And when they’re gone, they’re gone and that opportunity is too. And if you don’t, you’re probably gonna have many in your life until you do. I LOVE YOU ALL!!