In the “Behind the Design” series I go deeper into explaining my thinking and reasoning for the words of each message so you can really understand the energy and intention I put into each design.
**Disclaimer** I am not an expert nor do I claim to be. These are just my thoughts and opinions on this subject. Take what you resonate with and leave the rest.
Recently in the Facebook group “The Shamanic View of Mental Illness” I spoke to a guy who is having trouble with “intrusive thoughts” and was self-medicating with the drug Abilify. He said the drug works well to “make them disappear” but that it “makes me more dull”. He was asking if the intrusive thoughts are signs of buried trauma. I don’t personally understand what an intrusive thought would be – when you’re unconscious your thoughts are in control of you. They trample your mind repeatedly with broken record persistence. I read from various online sites that people think an estimate of 50,000-70,000 thoughts per day. At those numbers it seems to me they are all intrusive.
Further into the exchange he explained the thoughts are overblown fears that he magnifies “100x”. I asked if he takes the time to go within and ask himself questions about each thought when it comes up. He basically said no, he doesn’t. And he LMAOed me.
We have been conditioned to go outside of ourselves for help. We would rather talk to a priest, teacher, family member, Cosmo magazine, random people on Facebook but we never think to tap into our own eternal wisdom. We don’t know our own power. And this is what amazes me about humanity. We will do everything under the sun to smother, bury, hide, deny and escape from our deepest, darkest feelings and parts of ourselves. We would rather fill our bodies with poisonous drugs than find the root cause of the discontent. Everything but look inside and acknowledge what’s there. I honestly don’t understand why people choose to cause themselves so much more pain and suffering by evading, escaping and deflecting instead of just facing head on and confronting those thoughts to heal and release them. The longer people do that the worse the issue becomes. Because they are just thoughts. They are only true if you believe them. They can either be a blessing or a curse. Positive or negative. They can inspire and empower or deflate and depress. Unless you have disorganized thinking/schizophrenia you are in control of your thoughts. You are able to discern if this is a thought worth believing or not. You are able to observe and extract each thought, ask yourself questions about each thought and decide what to do with each thought. You are in control of your mind and the thoughts you choose to have if you take the time to become aware of them instead of letting them run rampant and uncontrolled all day. You choose to cause your own suffering or not. The question is: are you ready to let go of the story you’re attached to and let yourself heal or do you continue to wallow in your own misery?
What can you do?
When a thought comes up that I have trouble with I find a quiet place where I can sit still and won’t be bothered. Then I let myself relax by just being aware of my surroundings and what I notice. Then I bring up the thought and I observe how my body feels. I take note of any tightness, increased heart palpitations, anxiety, feelings and emotions that come up. You might want to write this down in a journal if you have a lot of thoughts that you want to heal and release. It helps to remember what you’ve done in the past and review how far you’ve come. Then I ask myself these questions one by one (with plenty of time in between) and wait to see what comes up. You may find yourself asking questions different than mine and by all means go with whatever gives you the best answers.
You have to make an effort to slow down your thoughts so you can observe them. This only works if you allow space around each thought. You CAN do it.
What does this thought mean to me?
Is it true? Or false? What happens if it’s true/false? Will I be hurt? Will someone else be hurt?
Where does this thought come from? Is it mine? Is it from someone else?
What can I learn from this thought? What do I need to know? What is it trying to tell me?
Am I ready to heal/release this thought? Does it still serve me? Is my ego attached to it so I believe I need it?
What belief is attached to this thought? How long have I had this belief? Where does this belief come from?
Has this belief served its purpose? Am I ready to heal this belief? Can I let it go?
What if I don’t get any answers?
Oftentimes when I do this my mind is lead on tangents and I may not get clear and tidy answers to every question but I always feel better and have more information than I did before I asked. Remember this is a practice, not a quick-heal magic pill. You’re taking the time to get to know yourself, and that won’t be done in one sitting. More like many, many, many sittings. You may get what you need and you may not. You can ask yourself/your energetic spiritual team/The Universe for clarity. But you have to be open to receiving the answers or you won’t get anything. It can come right away or it can take days/weeks. You may have to ask repeatedly. Answers can come to you in dreams, flashes of insight, random thoughts that pop into your head, feelings, etc. There are so many ways but you have to be aware enough to make the connection. You could also try hypnosis, either self or by a trained therapist. Hypnosis is incredibly effective as a means of accessing your subconscious as an alternative to meditation. But again, depending on what you want to know it can take many sessions. Both put you in altered states of mind that allow deeper communication from within.
Ask your subconscious using yes and no questions
Your subconscious mind is always available to communicate with your conscious mind. But it is limited and can only reply to yes and no questions.
I find that the first immediate reply in my head is usually the correct one. If you don’t trust answers in your head (I didn’t for a long time and sometimes still don’t), another way to know the answers are accurate is to do muscle testing, aka kinesiology. Kinesiology uses your body’s electrical system and your muscles to tell you with spot on accuracy if something is positive or negative for you. I like this definition from Holistic Health Tools:
“If you’ve ever been to a chiropractor or holistic physician experienced in muscle testing, you’ve experienced kinesiology. The doctor tells you to stick out your arm and resist his pressure. It feels like he is trying to push your arm down after he has told you not to let him do it. Everything is going fine, and then all of a sudden he presses and your arm falls down like a floppy fish no matter how hard you try to keep it up. That is using kinesiology.
Simply stated, the body has within it and surrounding it an electrical network or grid. If anything impacts your electrical system that does not maintain or enhance your health and your body’s balance, your muscles, when having physical pressure applied, are unable to hold their strength. (Muscle power is directly linked to the balance of the electrical system.) In other words, if pressure is applied to an individual’s extended arm while his/hers body’s electrical system is being adversely affected, the muscles will weaken and the arm will not be able to resist the pressure. The circuits of the electrical system are overloaded or have short-circuited, causing a weakening of that system. However, if pressure is applied while his electrical system is being positively affected, the circuits remain strong, balanced and capable of fully functioning throughout the body. The muscles will remain strong, the person will easily resist and the arm will hold its position.”
When you’re by yourself you use your fingers to test. Using either hand, make a circle with your thumb and first (index) finger. Apply enough pressure to keep it closed. With your other hand using the same fingers, form another circle through the first circle so you have two interlocked circles. After you ask a question, using your dominant hand try to pull your fingers through and break the circle of the other hand. If the answer is positive, the circle is unbreakable and strong. If it’s negative it will be weak and easily break. Start by asking yourself some baseline question you know the answers to like your name, age, etc. When you feel comfortable that it’s accurate you can begin asking the hard questions. After each one try to break the circle and see what the answer is. I really do recommend writing down your answers because this journey of self-exploration works best when tracked.
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I didn’t really know what it meant to ‘go within’ until the year 2015. I knew about meditation, and I dabbled but it never really stuck with me. I’ve been on my spiritual journey on and off my entire adult life and only in the last few years has it really intensified resulting in my partial awakening and higher consciousness. It was only when I began doing serious belief work that I went within to ask myself questions about my beliefs. I’ve since cleared a lot of negative beliefs I’ve held my whole life. I can honestly say that I no longer have ANY negative thoughts about myself (and I used to have a ton like everyone else). I can honestly say that I have released pretty much all negative thoughts and emotions like fear, worry, doubt, anxiety, etc. I’m still working on anger, frustration, impatience and more but I’m aware of them when those thoughts come into my head. This is the journey we all signed up for when we asked to incarnate as a human on this planet so until we cross over or ascend into the 5th dimension we will continue working on the lower vibrations within our energy field. You’re never done! Even when you think you are, there’s always more!
I have compassion for all of us that have lived or are living in the illusion of our pain and suffering. What I do not have compassion for anymore, is enabling people to live in their stories and not calling them on what I see or hear. To me it’s more helpful to point out what they may not recognize in themselves and help them see through the story they believe is causing them pain. And if they are not ready for such bluntness they will fight and resist. And that’s fine too. My job as a lightworker is to shed light on darkness, even if it causes more pain to be illuminated. The path to 5D enlightenment can only be made when we acknowledge our shadow and integrate it with our light. You choose how painful or graceful your process is. Everything is coming up now during this tumultuous transition we are going through, so either face it head on and go within or continue to suffer. You ALWAYS have a choice.